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It's not the matter of what happened that is pushing us/me/this relationship to the edge of breaking apart. No matter how much I tried to pull back or try other ways. None of them works out. Maybe I should be frank that I couldn't tolerate your attitude.  Your ways and my ways work differently. You just needed me to be your tour guide or translator or whatsoever when in hongkong. Fine. You want to take the escalator doesn't mean I have to follow. I am alr very unhappy that I have to help you or your mother with her goods. I purposely made a trip to somewhere not in our itinerary.  So what if we got extra time? Did she express any gratitude to me helping her carry goods back? NO! My luggage is big doesn't mean I have to help her. That is her goods, her business. I don't have to be nice to someone that is taking bad about me all the time.  You want to be filial son. Then you carry it yourself.  Don't show me the damn heavy and your hands are breaking apart if you wanna be her filial son.

I don't think that I have any fault or unrespectful for saying such things. I am not related to her. I don't have to help her. And I know what xiaoping jiejie told you about me. I don't care. She wants to thinks that is my fault that I started quarrels with you. So be it. Be it them or you, I am wrong to quarrel. I should give in.

Every quarrel is just piling up and driving me crazy. no matter what you just doesn't apologise when it is your fault. Nevermind.  Apologising isn't the important thing now. The important thing is we won't be like before anymore. As easy as it.

I don't know if you will see it. But if you don't it doesn't make any difference either.
I feel that it's very hard for us to maintain this relationship. No matter how much we love each other we don't want each other to leave, we still have to face this fact that we might broke up someday. Because I know you won't admit it's your fault even though you are at fault. Even if you apologise you still will feel very bu shuang. No matter what people say or I say you also thinks that is bullshit. Sorry. I'm wrong. Only xiao ping jiejie they all say you will listen. I forgotten I was in your important list. So when you are not happy I am trying to help you, you treat me like shit. Scold me give me attitude. Okay fine. What I say you thinks that is bullshit, okay don't listen. Do whatever you want. I will never ever give you a word of concern. Why should I even bother if I am being treated this way? No matter what I do, I also got wrong. Then we don't talk don't meet don't text then Nothing will happen. Best!
I will never regret what I say. We won't last for long if this is your attitude when I tried to help.
You can treat my words as bullshit. That's your choice

I hope everything is fine now. I didn't expect you will let go of me. I'm Sorry. I'm the one that is causing everything. If I talked to you more we won't quarrel. I didn't know that meeting you every week will caused you so much trouble and you don't have free time for yourself. I'm Sorry.

Reading back the old posts, I started to know what went wrong with us. We used to be so sweet, so close. But till that one final day we started to quarrel because of your sis. That very moment when you started ignored me, even when I walk off you didn't bother to chase up. That is when everything started to change. Getting worst everytime. Till this very stage that even I go out and have one night stand with other guys you don't give a damn too.

I'm not that important to you anymore. I thought the Taiwan trip will make us closer together. But it didn't. Nothing had changed to make us better. Maybe I am just a girl that you could satisfied your needs and the Next moment I will be in the trash bin.

I don't know is it us that had changed or is it the relationship. But one thing for sure is that we are not like that last time. Last time you won't don't understand what I am saying, you won't keep asking me things. Or I should say, Maybe I don't feel secure with you bah.  I don't know. You never stopped talking to me. Till that one day, which I don't know when, you started not talking to me.

You asked if I am starting to fade, Maybe bah. I also don't know.

Hehe, someone keep seeing what I write on the blog wor. Hehe. Although I don't know why suddenly you went to read back all the blog posts, but if you see anything there, don't be sad okay? It's all in the past alr.

Time past so fast, one more month plus we will be together for 1 year alr.Hope you don't get bored of me. Hehe. Yeahhh! In July we will be going to Taiwan alr. :) Happy mah? I scared you will don't like to go overseas with me. :(

Sorry dear. I don't know why keep making you angry. Sorry.

opps. i think i very longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg never post alr. you also loh. never post de. HAHA. :/

Enjoyed my day at Sentosa on Sunday. Hehe. You accompanied me the whole day leh! <3 you!
Riding bike out with you the whole day. We went Ikea for hotdog bread first then to Bugis for your bike cover then to Vivo City then to Sentosa. Hehe. Very long never have so much fun alr. :) Love the time when I'm with you.

It's not the matter of what happened that is pushing us/me/this relationship to the edge of breaking apart. No matter how much I tried to pull back or try other ways. None of them works out. Maybe I should be frank that I couldn't tolerate your attitude.  Your ways and my ways work differently. You just needed me to be your tour guide or translator or whatsoever when in hongkong. Fine. You want to take the escalator doesn't mean I have to follow. I am alr very unhappy that I have to help you or your mother with her goods. I purposely made a trip to somewhere not in our itinerary.  So what if we got extra time? Did she express any gratitude to me helping her carry goods back? NO! My luggage is big doesn't mean I have to help her. That is her goods, her business. I don't have to be nice to someone that is taking bad about me all the time.  You want to be filial son. Then you carry it yourself.  Don't show me the damn heavy and your hands are breaking apart if you wanna be her filial son.

I don't think that I have any fault or unrespectful for saying such things. I am not related to her. I don't have to help her. And I know what xiaoping jiejie told you about me. I don't care. She wants to thinks that is my fault that I started quarrels with you. So be it. Be it them or you, I am wrong to quarrel. I should give in.

Every quarrel is just piling up and driving me crazy. no matter what you just doesn't apologise when it is your fault. Nevermind.  Apologising isn't the important thing now. The important thing is we won't be like before anymore. As easy as it.

I don't know if you will see it. But if you don't it doesn't make any difference either.
I feel that it's very hard for us to maintain this relationship. No matter how much we love each other we don't want each other to leave, we still have to face this fact that we might broke up someday. Because I know you won't admit it's your fault even though you are at fault. Even if you apologise you still will feel very bu shuang. No matter what people say or I say you also thinks that is bullshit. Sorry. I'm wrong. Only xiao ping jiejie they all say you will listen. I forgotten I was in your important list. So when you are not happy I am trying to help you, you treat me like shit. Scold me give me attitude. Okay fine. What I say you thinks that is bullshit, okay don't listen. Do whatever you want. I will never ever give you a word of concern. Why should I even bother if I am being treated this way? No matter what I do, I also got wrong. Then we don't talk don't meet don't text then Nothing will happen. Best!
I will never regret what I say. We won't last for long if this is your attitude when I tried to help.
You can treat my words as bullshit. That's your choice

I hope everything is fine now. I didn't expect you will let go of me. I'm Sorry. I'm the one that is causing everything. If I talked to you more we won't quarrel. I didn't know that meeting you every week will caused you so much trouble and you don't have free time for yourself. I'm Sorry.

Reading back the old posts, I started to know what went wrong with us. We used to be so sweet, so close. But till that one final day we started to quarrel because of your sis. That very moment when you started ignored me, even when I walk off you didn't bother to chase up. That is when everything started to change. Getting worst everytime. Till this very stage that even I go out and have one night stand with other guys you don't give a damn too.

I'm not that important to you anymore. I thought the Taiwan trip will make us closer together. But it didn't. Nothing had changed to make us better. Maybe I am just a girl that you could satisfied your needs and the Next moment I will be in the trash bin.

I don't know is it us that had changed or is it the relationship. But one thing for sure is that we are not like that last time. Last time you won't don't understand what I am saying, you won't keep asking me things. Or I should say, Maybe I don't feel secure with you bah.  I don't know. You never stopped talking to me. Till that one day, which I don't know when, you started not talking to me.

You asked if I am starting to fade, Maybe bah. I also don't know.

Hehe, someone keep seeing what I write on the blog wor. Hehe. Although I don't know why suddenly you went to read back all the blog posts, but if you see anything there, don't be sad okay? It's all in the past alr.

Time past so fast, one more month plus we will be together for 1 year alr.Hope you don't get bored of me. Hehe. Yeahhh! In July we will be going to Taiwan alr. :) Happy mah? I scared you will don't like to go overseas with me. :(

Sorry dear. I don't know why keep making you angry. Sorry.

opps. i think i very longgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg never post alr. you also loh. never post de. HAHA. :/

Enjoyed my day at Sentosa on Sunday. Hehe. You accompanied me the whole day leh! <3 you!
Riding bike out with you the whole day. We went Ikea for hotdog bread first then to Bugis for your bike cover then to Vivo City then to Sentosa. Hehe. Very long never have so much fun alr. :) Love the time when I'm with you.

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

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