 bonjour ~
A place that we could note down every memories of ours.
recent update :
Plans
1. Taiwan trip
2. Adventure Cove
3. Universal Studios
4. LegoLand
5. Hello Kitty Land
6. Cycling
7. Couple necklace
8. Henderson wave
9. Kite flying
10. Hort Park
11. River Safari
12. Labrador Park
13. Diving
14. Xu Liu Shan
15. Sea Aquarium
16. LOVE ALICIA MORE
17. COAX ALICIA
18. TAKE ALOT OF PHOTOS
19. POLARIOD PHOTOS!
20. COAX MY DEAR BABY!
21. GIVE MY DEAR A HOME
22. BE MY DEAR'S WIFE
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Monday Bluesssss
written on Monday, September 16, 2013 @ 9:22 PM ✈
It's Mondayyyyyy, which means I have to go through 5 more days without seeing you. Hoping that tomorrow when I wake up it will be Saturday alr. But this will never happen. Unless, I got myself into a coma now and wake up on Saturday morning. Haha. Okay, I shall stop it. Someone gonna be angry when he sees this. :/
Mmmmmm, I don't know if I should you know about this. Actually, I'm a bit sad when you told me that she's going in with you. I don't know why I'm like that. I shouldn't feel this way. She's your sis. How could I feel sad or jealous when you head out with her. I can't! I've thought about it the whole afternoon why am I feeling this way. The only answer I could give myself is that, I don't feel secure. And I've built a wall inside me to protect myself unknowingly. I'm afraid of putting into much feelings. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to be like the last time. I don't want to hurt anyone either. She's your sis. I can't totally ignore how she feels. I don't think you could either. You still will take her feelings into consideration. She still stands a important position in your heart. No matter how close I'm with you, I will never be as important as her. The wall inside me will help me to withdraw out of the r/s when I'm hurt. Don't blame yourself for making me sad. It's not your fault. It's me that couldn't stop taking consideration of how people feels especially my best friends, my bbgs. I'm sorry. But I have no intention of breaking up kay. So please don't think that I tell you these things is trying to tell you I want to break up. That's not my intention.
Maybe when you're reading these posts, I'm alr asleep. Hope you enjoy your day at Malaysia with them. Goodnights my dear. <3 Labels: A wall had built up unknowingly.
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Monday Bluesssss
written on Monday, September 16, 2013 @ 9:22 PM ✈
It's Mondayyyyyy, which means I have to go through 5 more days without seeing you. Hoping that tomorrow when I wake up it will be Saturday alr. But this will never happen. Unless, I got myself into a coma now and wake up on Saturday morning. Haha. Okay, I shall stop it. Someone gonna be angry when he sees this. :/
Mmmmmm, I don't know if I should you know about this. Actually, I'm a bit sad when you told me that she's going in with you. I don't know why I'm like that. I shouldn't feel this way. She's your sis. How could I feel sad or jealous when you head out with her. I can't! I've thought about it the whole afternoon why am I feeling this way. The only answer I could give myself is that, I don't feel secure. And I've built a wall inside me to protect myself unknowingly. I'm afraid of putting into much feelings. I'm afraid of getting hurt. I don't want to be like the last time. I don't want to hurt anyone either. She's your sis. I can't totally ignore how she feels. I don't think you could either. You still will take her feelings into consideration. She still stands a important position in your heart. No matter how close I'm with you, I will never be as important as her. The wall inside me will help me to withdraw out of the r/s when I'm hurt. Don't blame yourself for making me sad. It's not your fault. It's me that couldn't stop taking consideration of how people feels especially my best friends, my bbgs. I'm sorry. But I have no intention of breaking up kay. So please don't think that I tell you these things is trying to tell you I want to break up. That's not my intention.
Maybe when you're reading these posts, I'm alr asleep. Hope you enjoy your day at Malaysia with them. Goodnights my dear. <3 Labels: A wall had built up unknowingly.
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we live under the same sky
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
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